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| Dear friend,
there isn't any reason why i am leaving this blog.
but, i am moving. shifting out of xanga for the time being.
i have been wanting to do this for more than a year. i guess that's how LONG i actually took to prepare my heart for this. especially the need to part with so many memories.
i will still update a few lines once in a while thou - to keep this blog alive.
meanwhile, to YOU out there, who is still reading this, thanks for being such a sweet reader & friend in my life all these while.
you may read my future musings @ Letters To Querida.
http://letters2querida.blogspot.com
Yours Sincerely,
Zijing.
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i was about to add a new entry...i was attracted to THAT sentence from another fellow xanga blogger. after receiving so much from everyone, i really really think i can never love them back enough. whatever i do, just seem too little.. please, people, dun love me too much! (faiz is SO gonna get me for acting like this.) HAHA! im happy now. and i guess i can really pick myself up again and move on towards my dreams and goals!! thanks for everyone who has been there for me, whether they knew it or not. It's even more special to see the well-wishes from friends who have not heard from so many years ago. and thanks for all the love from every single person that went to my birthday celebration!! i will do my best and be happy!! wanted to like offically cancel this blog and announced the new one today but, with the zero possibility of uploading pictures in the other one currently......i think i will stay faithful to xanga for now. din sleep much cos i dun wanna waste my time!! gtg get busy!! :D | | |
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i know i have been MIA for a long long long time.
it's just like... i'm there but not there. and i don't think it's just the last two weeks.
i understand what you all mean and i am not gonna apologise this time.
there's no reason why.
just wanna say i have been happy and grateful for the last five months and i don't regret it.
i can't anyway.
no one can change it and i wouldn't, even if,
even if "you point a gun at my head".
i'm just a little teeny weeny bit sad cause the ppl whom i thought would understand didn't.
but now, at least i guess i can see a glimpse of your perspective. thanks for sharing.
at least now, i know i'm not standing alone. so, thanks for all the love.
a girlfriend *just* posted this on her FB wall.
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HAHA.
i guess i can only tell myself what i told her too.
CURRENT STATE OF LIFE: Temporary Contaminated.
I WILL BE BACK. ASAP.
because i don't wanna waste my time anymore. i'm disappointed in myself.
how can i be so easily defeated? stupid devilish functions. stupid sanshoshima.
now, how can i report to sensei?
*dun ask. you cant handle it.
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| i'm just beginning to adapted to life that only has 24hours per day.
it's not easy to complete every task i'd set for myself in a full twenty four hours, and i think i'm 90% there now.
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There was AVT internship consultation this morning and it was really great to see everyone!! - besides christine and amirr who din turn up. Some seemed so prepared with the report and presentation, i need to buck up. It's so easy to slacken a little at work cause everyone's so nice and my supervisor just emailed me last night for my own farewell lunch!! That was really sweet of all the seniors and bosses!!
After the mtg, the girls went to town so i went to the school library to borrow books. Rochelle and siti are planning a trip to Japan this October!! haha, siti seemed to have a point to prove before she turns twenty. I wished proving 'points' to others weren't so costly.
Whampoa Zone YWD had our Formation Day rehearsal today! There's still more to improve on, especially the formation and set up of the stage and props. The improvement of our choir and contemporary dance has been really impressive. And a certain lovely lady shared some juicy details with me today...haha, still cant believe it actually happened!!
Spent the evening at the SAF chalet at Changi Village, to celebrate Jefferson's 21st bday!! Saw Xiu and her bf on the way too... The place was really beautiful!! Even the ymds think it is the perfect romancing venue. Even though there were a few heavy downpours throughout the night, it gathered everyone indoors. There was a dance battle segment after the cake cutting between jeff and the dance crew. It was so entertaining, some adults tried to request the female dancers to go up too. While ruizhen and my sis had their little dialogue and huixian & the guys were playing table soccer, koksheng, another ywd and i managed to watched a little bit of BOF on Ch U! Valentine's day episode!!
i'm going to miss next week's episode too, due to Whampoa Zone YWD Formation Day concert, but hope i can catch it when lee min jung appears in the story!! It's almost mid-July, but i still don't see Sony Ericsson's new hp model yet. Can't wait to see her commercials!! ^^
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| The sudden demise of MJ caught everyone by surprise and because of this, I've been really really busy today. This is the first time I could totally empathise with the stress the seniors at PlayOut faced everyday.
Perhaps I had not involve myself that much in the first 3 months and as fellow colleagues seem to see how late I stayed even though I could leave on time, my presence seem more impt now. haha, because i could help them meet the unofficial quota of work daily. Not that i mind, but today...I felt really stressed out.
Tapes arrived expecially late today.
Trailers were still not in the server and Vasantham Star episode didn't arrived until one hour before transmission. Because two staff were on mc, the workload was much heavier for everyone. One staff have to supervise two to three channels.
And as I'd mentioned, Michael Jackson's memorial service and the music tribute trailers were coming in so many at a time. The cute intern that always pop by to request for trailer re-cache didn't seem so cute today because I was too busy to notice. I kinda hope he wouldn't come by so often because that would mean more editing had been done and I had to delete the old clips and ingest new ones. One of the shift team leaders saw that i was looking so tired, he passed me some chocolates from Italy.
Thankfully, I had a great spirit booster in the evening. Took the long bus trip to homevisit HanYing and YanYing with fellow YWD leaders. Lent hanying my Mitch Albom series and we shared about overcoming obstacles. From the dialogue, I learnt so much and i guess my life expanded too.
When their dad went to the floating platform to pick up their mum from her NDP rehearsal, I left to meet hysen at hougang mall's mcd. So glad we could catch up... ^.^
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HEARTS2 campaign has started and I really wanna leave wonderful and lasting memories for myself and the girls. I hope that e VIVO campaign will produce wonderful results too! Less than eight months to go before graduation. I don't wanna leave NP or NPSD with regrets!!
JIA YOU!!
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